Your Story is Beautiful

To Tell You My Story is to tell of HimIn the last 5 years I have realized how beautiful a story of life is. I have learned that there is beauty in the storms, beauty in the rainbow after the storms and beauty in the rebuilding. Each story is unique. Each journey is personal. I have learned to rise from the ashes. I have also learned to love and share my story in the hopes that I can help anyone who is going through something. There are moments in life, when you want to give up, run or just hide, but when you meet those moments and battle through them, you come out changed and pieced back together. At least I have. This is my story.  Continue reading “Your Story is Beautiful”


Running Away…again

IMG_2458Elopement. This is not a word that you probably use in your daily vocabulary unless you have a child with Autism. This is a word that is constantly used in our life. What is it? It is when a child runs, escapes, takes off….this is not a discipline issue. this is not an out of control issue. It is one of the many things that come with having a child who has zero fear. Who doesn’t necessarily understand that it is truly a safety issue for him. Continue reading “Running Away…again”


I am in a weird place right now. Kind of an in between stage. Just trying to figure out, where I should be serving and what I should be doing. For the last 5 years, I have served faithfully in the children’s program (2-3year olds) at whichever church we attended as a family. I have felt very led to serve in that area, to watch little tiny souls feel how much Jesus loves them. It has been a real blessing for me and I hope for others as well. Yet, I am not feeling called to serve in Children’s Ministry at this new church. Part of me thinks that I am not being called to serve there, because I am in both Kolten and Logan’s classroom every week. I am volunteering my time with kids who don’t necessarily know God. I am able to help them read, work with them, and pray silent prayers over their lives. I believe that is where God wants me in this time.  Continue reading “Serving.”

I disappeared for a year…oops!

When I started this blog, it was to share what we were going through and how we were coping with different items in our lives. Between being a parent, then a parent to a special needs kid and then to two special needs kids, all while trying to keep who I was. There have been times and days and weeks, when I barely know who I am and what I am doing. But alas, isn’t that the life of every mom?

So what have we been up to in the last year? A LOT! Well we moved again. Yep, this time to Florida. We live on the space coast. That move has come with challenges, joys and triumphs. Just like any move. Continue reading “I disappeared for a year…oops!”

Kolten turns 3

Three years ago today, I didn’t know my life could be so full, so complete, so chaotic and so perfect. Three years ago, I didn’t know that I could love someone as much as I already loved Logan and that someone could be naughtier than what I was already experiencing. Three years ago, I didn’t know that we would face an autism diagnosis. Three years ago, I didn’t know that speech would come so late and so slow. And three years ago, I didn’t know that nothing would ever be the same.  Continue reading “Kolten turns 3”

Emotions Abound

Life lately has been one emotional journey after another. Each day we tackle a new emotion, a new feeling and a new meltdown. Part of it is that Logan is 5, part of it is the Autism, part of it is the changes that are coming. But all of it is overwhelming and a struggle. There are not many days or times that I complain about being a single mom. It is my life and how we cope with things in our little family of three, is just our way of doing things. However, Logan’s emotions can take over my own and it is exhausting. It is hard. And I want to be able to tag team and take a break, but alas, that is not an option and so we keep moving forward.  Continue reading “Emotions Abound”

What I have Accepted

As time goes by and I become more accepting with our diagnosis, I realize that even more so now, I am his advocate, his voice, his protector, his champion. Yes, as a mom I was already all of those things, but now….now if I fail….well that is not an option, this is now my mission. One I can’t fail at, one I won’t fail at. I have come to realize our diagnosis is a path that was opened to us and while there are a ton of hills on this path, it’s a pretty amazing adventure. I have also realized that I say “our diagnosis” because at the end of the day, it really is OURS. It affects Logan, it affects me, and it affects Kolten. We are a package deal, if it happens to one, it happens to all. We all have to deal with the crazy that accompanies Kolten. Now, who knows if some of the things that happen (like Kolten undecorating the tree while Logan sobs that Kolten hates Christmas) are age related or if they are autism related…only time can tell.  We are all going gluten free, because it is best for Kolten. We are a family, we will stick together in this journey, we will meet every challenge as 3 against 1. There is nothing that together and with Christ that we cannot overcome.  Continue reading “What I have Accepted”

I believe in our future.

IMG_1512It has been about two weeks since the initial diagnosis. Two weeks since the word Autism made a permanent journey to live in our house. Two weeks since our eyes have been opened to change.

Two weeks ago, I was overwhelmed with all of the change and the journey that our life was now going to take. Kolten had been diagnosed with Autism and we needed to figure out what that meant and how it was going to really shape our life.  We have started some big changes in how we do things, the way we eat and even the way sleep is being tackled.

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Today was the day. Today was D-day as I was affectionately calling it. Today was the day that answers for Kolten would happen. Today, after a full day of testing, we got the diagnosis. Kolten has autism.  Kolten. Autism. Kolten.

Logically I have been here for a month or two. When it was first suggested, I started to do mass research on it. Kolten fit in so many places. He had all the signs and I hadn’t seen it. But hearing the diagnosis today was bittersweet. It was on one hand, reassuring, because now, finally we have answers for his behaviors and outbursts. But on the flip side…it is hard to hear. It is hard to hear that your kid is always going to be different, in a world where differences are not always celebrated…especially as a kid.

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